i don't find juggling fun. it's not fun, every time i drop a ball i get mad and start throwing it at the walls, or when i throw a ball too far to the side i immediately throw other balls into it as hard as i can. i fucking hate juggling because i make mistakes and that makes it not fun because that means i'm not perfect at it. i also constantly stomp on the balls or stand on balls and then juggle the rest of them while standing on the balls because i dropped that ball. it's not fun anymore. i can't juggle 19 balls with my eyes closed. why can't i juggle 19 balls with my eyes closed???